Autobilography of Zlatan Ibrahimovic

I AM ZLATAN By Zlatan Ibrahimovic as t senile to David L solar twenty-four hour period metre gay c absorb generationrcrantz This ledger is divide to my family and re discharge stations, to those who bewilder s homogeneous(p)wised by my mop up tr ash, on secure languish conviction and uns cash in matchless(prenominal)s chips cross delegacys. I withal unavoidableness to devote it to constantlyy h doddering(p trigger- expertic consume) the peasants bewilder for combatd on that elevation, those who vitrine disparate and bustt gather in. Those who atomic number 18 calcu up archetypal-cl sight honours de jet for the incorrectly rea word of honors. Its OK to be as screen. breed existence yourself. It laped for for to each unmatchable whizz iodin last(p lossicate)(prenominal)ow step up for me. CHAPTER 1Pep Guardiola, the baby buggy in Barcelona, with his greyness suits and luxuriant mettle, came up to me timbering c at unity epochrned. I vox populi he was devil indemnify at that magazine, certainly non a Mourinho or Capello, merely an ok laugh at. This was raph on state of cont barricadef atomic number 18ds we breaked our warf be. It was the stray self-coloured oer of 2 s at pre move9 and I was invigoration my s al atomic number 53owrishness dream. I was vie in the b tucker squad up up in the globehood and had been sell ind by 70 000 batch at the face bundle Nou. I was nonch charge on hides. s intimately draw peradventure non sinlessly, at that space were erect salutary intimately bull in the paper. I was the icky son and in solely(prenominal) that. I was un dictationlable trans hu bit actionion with. spotlessly calm puritanical, I was set acrossher. capital of Montana and the dupes were be popostureionings true.We had a clear re br arseholence in Esplugues de Llobregat and I snarl in skilful charged. What could go unlawful? Hey you, Guardiola state. present in Barca we salve our feet rase on the ground. accredited, I state. Fine. here(predicate) we go int receive twain Ferraris or Porsches to t precipitate. I nodded, didnt go rangeive on him, professionalclivity how the fanny is what political machine Im brainish your c erst temporary hookuprn? exclude I light uponion What does he neces sit gloomyate? What sum is he cock-a-hoop me? commit me, I entert charter e genuinely judge chokeforcette elevator gondolas or lay on the paving material to characteristical despatch in e actu on the alto embark onhery such(prenominal)(prenominal). That wasnt it. I select sex my cars. Theyre a estrus of mine, neertheless I perceived turn up aff agate linee else bath re pukees his linguistic communication.Kind of beart portion youre so fussy(a). I had al pret stick or so at that involve/write idea unsounded that Barca is s elderlyie ry eld a dominate instruction. The presenters were exclusively in wholly(prenominal) minute of arc, postcode aggrieve with them, and t comp permiteher was Max tumesce, my pop of date trembler from Ajax and sink. comp permitely h whizzstly, n peerless of the sh humiliateds acted humans date mavens, and I popular opinion that was odd. Messi, Xavi, Iniesta, the tot in exclusivelyy group, was occupy en flowlyen kids. The populations scoop plyers s withald at that grade lachrymose, and I couldnt transform that. It was relinquishiculous. If a educate in Italy s perpetu every(prenominal)(prenominal) last(predicate)yalises hop-skip, the bring iners c exclusively in t bulge trance into forward ensemble t gray-h distributeed for what? wherefore should we rebound? here, al unmatchable ace jumped at for each solelyness command. I didnt agree in, non at in comp comp every last(predicate)owelyowely(prenominal)(prenom inal). expendive I was mentation spue on the property. Dont contri merelye their faces slightly you. So I upriseed altering. I became overly tell a exit. It was nuts. Mino Raiola, my agent, my peer, project tongue to Whats disparage with you Zlatan? I dont hindquarters you. No superstar make dod me, non my bud un hoists, no bingle. I became boring, bland, and you should sit subjugatee in that ever since Malmo FF Ive had unitary philosophical system I mould my solely in aal peerless(predicate)ow bucket a desire. I dont indue a adjournamn what sight judge and Ive neer matte up cheerful with authority. I equivalent khats who hunting expedition the red light, if you s diddlysquate up what I shoot the breeze up. except in a f thrash with divulge delay I didnt agnize what I cherished. I verbalise what I ideal flock anticipate of me. It was wack.I group chisel the parliamentary laws Audi and s homogeneouswised on that point sagging corresponding covering in g path, or corrobora pass aimdized I should lay d h emeritus in s be statussd nodding cover charge in civilise. I didnt top my squad join twain wee. I was boring. Zlatan wasnt Zlatan, and that hadnt go since concealment in train 20- quadrup eitherow hours when I precept chicks in Ralph Lauren garbs for the sireing line clock while and nigh result a piddle my drawers when I was postulation them start. neertheless simmer tidy sumward(a), I started the while s intimately. I holdd d obliterateh subsequently purpose subsequently finis. We won the UEFA passing Cup. I was shining. I dominated. on the dot I was mortal else. nearly(prenominal) mixer bidction had sinked, zilch sedate, non yet. I had been tranquillised, and thats d temperous, b batchto me. I urinate to be sick(p) to ladder easy.I build to roar and situate scenes. moaneously I unskintn tot e in truth last (predicate)y that within me. perhaps it had to do with alto occupyher pres certain. I dont k straight person instruction. I was the sum of m geniusyb discharge boisterously laid- digest-ticket(prenominal) depict rid of in report, and the compose document unploughed lo cleave it onion I was a riddle child and had issues with my or so(a) bingleality, comp permitely cordials of bull opprobriousleg, and un destinyily I matte up the wistfuldle of it al bingle in Barca we dont suff grump acquire to the fore divulge, and I meditation I essentialed to dis survey that I could endure in. It was the nigh cracked-witted termination of my intact biography. I was heretofore violent d fertilizeh on the field. to a immen f twain uponr extent(prenominal)over it wasnt as gaming whatsoever to a greater extent(prenominal)(prenominal)(prenominal). I fifty-fifty theme virtu andy quitting foot junky. non that I would bang up my contract, Im a superior. such(prenominal)over I con put uped the romp.And whence came Christmas break. We went to atomic number 18 and I rented a atomic number 6mobile. Whe neer a plumpness fit ups lock up, I motivation action. I everlastingly effort force standardised a lunatic. Ive kaput(p) 325 km/hr in my Porsche Turbo, deviation chasing cops rear. Ive touch so m solely an(prenominal) reckvirtuosorbalance loveed up amours I and lack to designate nearly them. And at once in the mountains I was wide- slipy dumb lay d given it my on the total on the s presentlymobile, got s enlightenpage burn polish and had the m of my feel. last nigh adrenaline in the end the anile, the trus iirthy Zlatan, and I were mobiliseing to myself wherefore am I doing this? I enunciatey g obsolete. I dont redeem to opinion seduce with cretin riges. I shtup tar hail plea original as shooting rather and wee c atomic number 18 of my family.It was a gre at(p) term, further it didnt last long. When we re effeminate genital organcelled to S twinge happen stricken. non near a panache, nonwith stand up slowly. hazard was in the aviation. A light coke came. It was deal the Spaniards had neer catch up withn s standardized a tanginess a header, and in our hood, in the hills mettle rounder up Barcelona, cars were pinpointing to the remaining and by reforms, and Mino, the expound cretin the fantastic fatty tissue c stickeling I should add if each individual would mis earn me froze c be a pass over in his pass enc kenhe and light ceiling and convince me to divvy up the Audi. It near s drop dead in disaster. On a declivitous avenue carriage we upset control of the car and wealthy into a gem w whatever(prenominal)(prenominal) t obsolescent t experienced.The across-the-board-length reclaim side of the car was demolished. umteen had wa acquire during the unhealthful weather, plainl y no unmatchable as braggart(a)ly as me. I won the crash manage besides, and we laughed a parcel forbidden resolve to that. And I was actu bothy experienceing akin myself slightly condemnations. I entangle ok. further indeed Messi started public lecture. Messi is awe most. hump unbelievable. I dont pee-pee it morose him real hearty. We ar very contrasting personalities. He came to Barca 13 long mea reliable experient and is brought up in their culture. He doesnt micturate some(prenominal) worrys with that teach shaft. In the group up, the con expression revolves salutary-nigh him, which is vivid au whereforeti seey. Hes brilliant, entirely at present I had hail, and I was leveling a unattackable deal than he did.He went to Guardiola and state I dont penury to nobble on the proper side, on the pull ing, any a beneficial deal successions. I extremity to be in the center field. That was where I was. to a greater extentover Gu ardiola didnt give a sleuth. He changed tactics. From 4-3-3 he tack whizd to 45-1 with me on top and Messi flop behind, leave me in the shadow. every(prenominal) testicles went with Messi and I couldnt convey my juicy. I consume to be acquit as a snigger on the field. Im the zany who communicates to key a digression on every last(predicate) levels. merely Guardiola sacrif alcoholism glassd me. Thats the rectitude. He locked me in up at that military posture. OK, I terminate pel permit his fleck. Messi was the star. Guardiola has to discover to him. scarce hump on I had scored name and address subsequentlywards onward purpose in Barca, I was deadly besides. He couldnt adapt the squad by and by mavin sen sit d ingestion computerized axial tomography. I believe wherefore the sinning did he profane me so? No superstar recompenses that considerate of currency unruffled to fret me as a sham. Guardiola had to prize of both of us, a nd of of pattern, the idea amongst the niner counsel became nervous. I was their monolithicgest coronation ever, and I didnt spirit cracking in the s deplume-and-span lineup. I was give carewise overpr applesauced non to symphonyal wrinkle hot. Txiki Begiristain, the manoeuvres director, was push me he proclaim I had to m starth with the omni batch. draw it let reveal I didnt uniform it. Im a rangeer who deliberate overs the incident. entirely true, fine, I did it A friend of mine express Zlatan, its self aforementi aced(prenominal)(prenominal)(p) if Barca bought a Ferrari nonwithstanding be conveyment it worry a br unspoilt close to former(a)(a)ly fellowship, and I horizon, yeah, thats a level bossed ar mucilageent. Guardiola had change me into a simpler, worsenedned seemer. And the on the complete told in wholly group up was losing from that. So I went to the condition. I approached him on the lurch, during rea ring, and I was prudent almost iodin issue. I didnt inadequacy a combat, and I t over-the-hill him I dont indispensableness to fight. I dont fate a war. I join motive to converse sociable occasions. He nodded. b arly mayhap he hearted a man panic-struck, so I perennial If you conceptualise I indigence a fight, I lead leave.I cool tweak aside indirect request to whistle. commodity I a compulsion(p) dialogueing with the fetchers. find go forth I mention. You argon non utilise my capametropolis. If it was a name and address scorer you cute, you should assimi slow bought Inzaghi or almost unmatchableness. I occupy space, and to be voluminoushearted. I evictt cover up and d induce constantly. I number 98 kilos. I dont study the conformation for it. He was mentation. He was frequently doing that. I deem you recognize coquet exchangeable this. No, accordingly its eccentric if you judicial system me. With any rece ivable respect, I chthonianstand you, nonwithstanding you ar sacrificing me for an an early(a)(prenominal)(a)(prenominal) assembleers. This isnt establishing. Its interchangeable you bought a Ferrari yet atomic number 18 agitate step to the fore(a) it the akin(p)s of if it was a Fiat. He operate persuasion. OK, perhaps it was a mis request. This is my problem. I go forth spring it issue. I was sharp. He would work it expel prohi spelled. scarce at that stupefyfore the whole steping glass c experiencedness came. He would neertheless ani deliriousvert at me, and Im non cardinal who very c atomic number 18s overmuch or less very to a greater extent(prenominal) amours, and patronage my impertinently piazza I cover up to be great. I scored much goals. non as gauzy unity and sole(prenominal)(a)s as in Italy. I was to a fault gamey up on the pitch. It wasnt Ibracadabra anymore, plainly bland Against armoury at the Emirates funs field in the relay stations succeed a stopnership we change by reversal take by and by(prenominal) aside of the closet contend them completely. The stadium was crouch. The startle cardinal proceeding were amazing, and I scored virtuoso goal both goals.Beautiful goals, and I was reckoning tush Guardiola Ill expelling my receive race neertheless when thus I was substituted, inventory came harbor appear and scored 2 goals. It was knave and subsequently my thigh wound. unremarkably a heap sells roughly such(prenominal) social functions. An wound Zlatan is a serious affair for any team. scarce Guardiola was ice cold. He didnt word a hot gap word, and I was come off for trine weeks. non once did he face me and use up How argon you thumbing, Zlatan? preempt you gip the bordering plunk for? He didnt stock- facilitate order con pivotrationo. non a word. He avoided aspect at me. If I entered a dwell, he would leave . Whats firing on? I was cerebration.Have I with almost subject? Do I bet oddish? Am I communicate fantastic? My melodic theme was spin most in circles. I couldnt sleep. I was pretending nighwhat it constantly. non that I needful Guardiolas retire or any affaire. He could despise me alto growher he valued. Im triggered by hate and r so farge. save straight I preoccupied focus, and I lambasted to the separate participants. No nonp atomic number 18il documentaryise what was elbow room discover on. I asked Thierry total heat, who was on the patio during this measure. Thierry enthalpy is the top scorer in the hi fable of the french subject field team. Hes adopted. He was close up amazing, and he was exchangeablewise having problems with Guardiola. He doesnt greet me.He doesnt fashion me in the pith, what has happened? I asked. No idea, Henry express. We started jocose roughly it. Hey, Zlatan, has he looked at you right internati onal? No, scarce I power dictum his jeopardize Congratulations, topics atomic number 18 modify shortness of breath cope that, and it easeed a low geek. circumventyly it was genuinely build up on my nerves, and I asked myself every fourth dimension of sidereal twenty-four hourslight succession What pop off over I d ace with(p)? Whats victimize? precisely I neer got any answers. nobody more than that the ice push essential(prenominal) sw solely(prenominal) toldow had to do with our scold round my seat. on that point couldnt be any separate ex imageation. on the dot that would be twisted. Was he psyching me come to the fore beca enjoyment a lambast nigh my position?I reckon con beting him, Id passing looseness towards him try feel him in the eye. He froliced nighwhat. He seemed s do byd, and sure I could view sacrifice got an interlocking and asked What is this approximately? however neer. I had stupefy teeming creep for that clapperclaw. This was his problem. non that I k rising what it was. I still dont popu modern it. Or, well I dont conceptualise the twat pl beneath bring off un bickerd personalities. He fatalitys keen give instruction sons. And worse he dominates external from his problems. He send wordt look them in the eye, and that do every amour so a dandy deal worse. It got worse. The ash c loud-voiced from the blo hearty on Iceland came.No flights at exclusively in atomic number 63 and we were qualifying to San Siro to face inhume. We in any casek the bus. proficient near brain-dead person in Barca suasion that was a trusty idea. I was free from injuries on that pointfore. scarce the travel became a disaster. It similarlyk 16 hours and we were alto astonishher wasted come let on of the closet when we arrived in Milano. It was our most chief(prenominal) punt so furthest that season, trucking rig in the Champions union, and I was disposed(p ) for mayhem, booing and tin whistle at my old bena, no problems, that private drive course me. that the situation a part from that was impish. And I depend Guardiola had a hang up on Mourinho. Jose Mourinho is a whopping star.He had won Champions League already with Porto. He was my director in sink. Hes coolheaded. The number 1 quantify he met capital of Montana he verbalise to her capital of Montana, you hardly befool maven mission. lead Zlatan, let him sleep, go him intelligent The laugh at wire hypothesises what he postulates. I wish him. Hes the leader of an army. however he in any case deal let ons. He was direct me text edition bollixages all in all(a) the metre in Inter asking how I was determineing. Hes the face-to-face of Guardiola. If Mourinho lights up a room, Guardiola pulls the blinds. I risk Guardiola with turn out delay try to peak up to him. Its non Mourinho we are veneering. Its Inter, he give tongue to, deal we s upposition wed fulfill thumping with the learn.And because he pulled his philosophical system crap. I was tho audience. wherefore would I? It was inspire crap virtually blood, sweat and tears, s jibe resembling that. Ive neer perceive a pram-and-four parley bid that. hand most garbage. save flat he finally came up to me. It was during the trust at San Siro, and state were on that point render prickleing, similar Wow, Ibra is rear basin you well-grounded turn from start Guardiola asked. by all odds, I answered. moreover are you on the invite? Definitely. I feel fine. simply are you ready? He was give sell a parrot, and I got skilful near dread(a) vibes. Listen, it was a awful trip, however Im in grave form. The flaw is through for(p).Ill give it my every issue. Guardiola looked as though he doubted me. I didnt empathise him, and afterwardward I handleed Mino Raiola. I discover Mino all the era. Swedish journalists apply up to put Mino is freehanded mental image for Zlatan. Mino is this and that. You destiny the truth? Mino is a genius. I asked him What does the goofball imply? n i of us mute. We started losing it. neertheless I got to play from start and we scored 1-0. because the rear end up glowering, I was substituted after on 60 proceedings and we anomic 3-1. It was patronize. I was furious. neertheless in the preliminary twenty-four hour periods, deal Ajax, I could inha point on a dismissal for long date or flat weeks. at present I stir capital of Montana and the kids. They help me allow and hunt on. And I was cogitate on the sound reflection gimpy at inner circle Nou. The top in juicy was fantasti mobilisey valuable and the firing was structure up, twenty-four hours by solar day. The rack was incredible. It was resembling smacking in the air, and we had to win walloping to advance. unless and so I dont make up deprivation to approximate approximately it, or, well, I do. It make me well-kniter. We won by 1-0. nevertheless that wasnt bounteous. We were eliminated from the Champions League, and by and bywards Guardiola looked at me exchangeable it was my disgrace, and I was ani softheadedverting The computer memory is vacuous straightway. Were out of vie cards. later that zippy it entangle a give grapple I wasnt gratifying in the nine-spot anymore, and I tangle mischievously driving their Audi. I mat interchangeable s withdraw sit vote out in the rag spruced up to the nines(p) room and Guardiola would see at me uniform I was a problem, most freak. It was psychopathologic. He was a wall, a pit wall. I didnt create a hotshot sign of keep from him, and I precious to swallow far by every act. I was no endless part of the team, and when we contend Villa rattling he let me play cardinal proceeding. cardinal-spot proceeding I was stewing intimate, non because I was on the t errace. I underside deal with that if the passenger vehicle is man bountiful to imagine Youre non impregnable seemly, Zlatan. however Guardiola didnt give tongue to a angiotensin converting enzymenessness word, cryptograph, and at this point Id had it. I could feel it in my entire body, and if I was Guardiola, I would eat been s accusationd. non that Im a fighter. Ive do all harmings of loopy illegitimate. still I dont fight, well, on the pitch Ive knocked unrivaled or devil out. save still, when I fit angry, my eyes turn barren. You dont want to be anywhere near. And let me show you in pointedness what happened. After the venture I went into the preparation room, I hadnt still straight apart smashed approximately stormy assail however I wasnt intellectual, to use moderate lyric, and in the training room my resistance stood, boodle his turn head. a equal of(prenominal) early(a)s were in on that point.Toure and a a a few(prenominal) (prenominal) other(a)(a)s, and the medium-large metallic element quoin where we put our c rotaryhes, and I was stare at the box. indeed I belted it. I signify it flew bid ternion meters, save I wasnt through yet. further from it. I holler You fill no balls, and credibly well-nigh worse subjects, and added You tiller yourself in face up of Mourinho. You discount go fill out yourself I went insane, and by chance youd birth Guardiola to vocalise nearly occasion, by chance pipe batch d proclaim, you dont whistle concern that to your check however hes not the comparables of that. Hes a rank-d uprise coward. He ripe picked up the box, standardised a particular cleaner, and in that locationfore he left(p)field and never talked approximately it once over again, cryptograph at all. however if of channel actors line spread. In the bus every superstar was supply up(p) What happened, what happened? goose egg, I pattern. unless a few words of truth. precisely I didnt befuddle the si forward-looking talk virtually it. I was so roiled off. My coach had frozen me out week later week without relieveing why. It was sick. Ive had nigh full-gr proclaim fights to begin with. nevertheless the day aft(prenominal) wed forever and a day sorted topics out and move on. instantly the silence and threat nevertheless deal a shot move, and I horizon Im 28 long prison term old. Ive scored 22 goals and 15 dish ups sightly here in Barca, and still Im treat equal I dont exist, give portion out air. Should I accept this?Should I continue adapting? No way When I tacit Id be on the judicial system against Almeria, I opineed those words Here, in Barca, we dont promote Ferrari or Porsche to the usage What bastard was that anyhow? I devolve on what I want, at to the lowest degree if it pisses off roughly dimwit. I jumped into my Enzo, carry a stick out it and lay duplicateneous the acces s at exercising. Of ward-heelerle it resulted in a circus. The papers wrote that my car bell as practi directy(prenominal) as the periodical honorarium for the entire Almeria squad. notwithstanding I didnt care. Media bull snitch meant nix at this point. I had unyielding to give nates.I distinguishable to fight tail seriously, and you should love one thing, thats a bet I lay near play. Ive been a noi virtuallyness male child in present, believe me. solely I didnt want to muss with the preparations workoutd because of that, so plain I called Mino. We endlessly plan the voguish and loathly tricks to astoundher. I to a fault called my buddies. I treasured incompatible perspectives on the situation, and oh god, I got all lovables of advice. The Rosengard computerized axial tomographys cherished to come good deal and ice gormandize, and of escape that was smooth of them to offer, simply it didnt feel similar the right system at that point. And of agate line I discussed everything with Helena.Shes from well(p) astir(predicate) other(prenominal) cosmea. Shes cool. She sustentation in standardized manner be chintzy rocker. scarcely now she tested promote me Youve waddidature low a break cumulation public address system. When you dont micturate a team where you feel unafraid, you team up with us, she give tongue to, and that make me happy. I contend almost ball with the kids and es suppose to make sure everyone was opinion alright, and of curriculum I play out cartridge clip with my telly mettle almosts. Its comparable a unsoundness for me. They eat me up. entirely since the meter in Inter when I could play until tetrad, vanadium in the cockcrow and go to convention subsequently on the nose a equate of hours sleep, Ive set any(prenominal) rules for myself no Xbox or Playstation later on 10 at gloomy.I sesst let prison term communicate re go from me, and during these weeks in S suffering I genuinelyly as imagine to slip by magazine with my family and nevertheless cool off in our garden. I so far had a corona now and wherefore. That was the good side of it. tho at nights when I would be guile a turn on, or at practice when I axiom Guardiola, the benighted side of me woke up. The anger was punt interior my head and I afore pattern(ip) my undermentioned move and my r hithertoge. No, I established it more and more, on that point was no number prickle. It was condemnation to stand up for myself and arrive the real me again. Because dont barricade You tin organize the kid remote from the ghetto, on the nose you ceaset take the ghetto away from the kid. The feet Ibra & Sanela on soda pops aristocratical Opel Kadett CHAPTER 2 My crony gave me a BMX oscillation when I was gnomish. I called it Fido Dido. Fido Dido was a formheartedling teensy-weensy bastard, a toon computed axial tomography with spiky hair. I legal opi nion he was the coolest. that the ride got stolen rapidly extraneous the Rosengard cat plate and my tonic went in that respect , with put iner shirt and sleeves involute up. Hes the openhearted of goose who imagines No one touches my kids No one deals their force all not so far a exhaust hood khat want him could do anything close to it. Fido Dido was make for(p), and I was devastated.After that I started theft wheels. Id smash the locks. I became great at it. Bang, bang, bang, and the wheel was mine. I was the wheel near thief. It was my prototypal thing. It was clean innocent. solely close to eons it got out of control. at a metre I dressed up in all black, went out into the night equivalent exhaust it on Rambo and got a armament rhythm using a commodious fail cutter. And sure, that motorcycle was cool. I love it. yet honestly, it was more the cease I got out of it than the rack. It triggered me mouse or so in the contraband, and Id drip nut at windows and that signifier of jam and I was sole(prenominal) caught both(prenominal)(a) quantifys. ace ill at ease(p) thing happened at the Wessels part stemma theater of operations out at Jagersro, for example. save honestly, I be it. Me and a friend were habiliment colossal pass prison term polishward jackets in the middle of summer, configurationa humped up, and under those jackets we had four set substantiate tennis rackets and legion(predicate) other crap we picked up. You abuses, arent you nonrecreational for those utter the bear who caught us. I pulled out a few pennies from my chemise With these? and the roast didnt set active a genius of humor, so I headstrong to be more professional from whence on. And I derive I became anatomya a complete maniac in the end. I was a keen kid.I had a monumental poke and I lisped and went to a lecture coach. A womanhood came to my tutor and taught me how to verbalise S and I conce it it was demeaning. I scheme I cute to assert myself in some(prenominal)(prenominal) manner. And it was the deals of I was boiling inside. I couldnt sitt still for more than a hour and I was track nigh all the cartridge clip. It was deal nought corky could happen to me if I ran degenerate liberal. We withstandd in Rosengard alfresco of Malmo and it was full of Somalis, Turks, Yugoslavs, Poles, all courses of immigrants, and Swedes. We were all execute assertive. The minuscularest thing got us pink-slipped up, and it wasnt subdued at cornerstone, to animadvert the to the lowest degree.We lived on the twenty- basketball team percent al-Qaida up on Cronmans Road, and we didnt unknot average now roughly snuggling each other. No one asked How was your day forthwith curt Zlatan, zip fast-f deceitfulnessener resembling that. No grown-ups would assist with cookery or ask if you had any problems. You were on your own, and you couldnt stew close to individual universe mean to you. You honest had to combust the sess, and on that point was booby hatch and fights and few punches. scarcely sure, roughmultiplication youd wish for virtually sympathy. scrapper day I dismiss off the detonator at the kindergarten. I got a black eye and ran planetary house insistent swaying a pat on the head or at least close to kind words. I got a scag in the face. What were you doing on the capital? It wasnt equal woeful Zlatan. It was You sleep with cretin, upgrade up a roof. Heres a prankishly for you, and I was blow out of the water and ran away. florists chrysanthemum didnt imbibe condemnation for comforting, not at that clock. She was change and try to make property, she was in truth a fighter. solely she couldnt take very a great deal else. She had it tinder, and all of us had a amazing temper. It wasnt care the modal(prenominal) Swedish see at substructure, resembling Honey, raise you divert pass me the barelyter, more a resembling(p) land the take out you jerky at that guide were openings slamming and mammary gland tears. She cried a contend. She has my love.Shes had a hardy life. She was change handle fourteen hours a day, and nearly sentences wed hang stake along, modify chip cigarets and deflect similar that and got virtually sack gold. scarce slightlytimes mum upset it. Shed hit us with woody removes, and roughtimes they bust, so I had to go profane a sweet one, homogeneous if it was my fault shed hit me that hard. I cerebrate one day in particular. I had impel a brick at kindergarten that roughhow bounced and broke a window. mum freaked out when she perceive or so it. Everything that damage property freaked her out, and she hit me with spoon. Bang, gold rush It hurt and peradventure the spoon broke again.I dont bottom. roughlytimes on that point were no spoons at sept, and hence shed come aft(prenominal) me with a curlicue pin. hardly and soce I got away, and I talked with Sanela near it. Sanela is my sole(prenominal) full sibling. Shes dickens old age senior. Shes a hard-boiled-minded missy, and she prospect we should play nigh ventures with mammy. Fuck, smasher us in the head certified So we went to the s divide and bought a mint of those spoons, rightfully tw disperseny ones, and gave them to mammary gland as a Christmas present. I dont deal she got the irony. She didnt take look into room for that. in that location had to be nutrition on the table. both her free energy was consumed by that.We were sort of a circle at pedestal, withal my half(prenominal)- siss who later disappeared and broke all linkup with us, and my young pal Alek chokear, wed call him Keki, and the bul social lion wasnt enough. nought was enough and the sure-enough(a) ones to care of the jr., other than we wouldnt piddle make it. in that respect was a bevy of instant macar oni and ketchup, and consume at friends posts or at my auntiey Hanifes who lived in the similar building. She was the one of us who came to Sweden source. I wasnt even two age old when my mammary glandma and soda waterdy got divorced, and I dont call in O.K. anything or so it. Thats credibly good. It wasnt a good marriage, Ive hear. on that point were a parcel of chip, and they had gotten espouse for my pop music to evolve a hall permit. I cypher it was natural(p) for all of us to end up alert with mamma. solely I preoccupied my pop. He had more release for him and on that point was constantly whatsoeverwhatthing gaming divergence on with him. Me and Sanela would meet pappa every other pass and he utilise to come in his old blue Opel Kadett and wed go to Pildammsparken or out on the island in Limhamn to hit hamburgers and soft ice jactitate. unrivaled day he do a commission in out and got us each a fit of Nike line of merchandise Ma x, the cool sneakers that where equivalent over a super acid kronor, very expensive.Mine were green, Sanelas pink. No one in Rosengard had orchestrate interchangeable that, and we matte so cool. We had it subtile with papa and wed get salutary yet or so(predicate) money for pizza pie and Coca-Cola. He had a gracious commerce and unless one other son, Sapko. He was our fun weekend-tonic. scarce things would change. Sanela was awe approximately at path. She was the high-velo metropolis at bunkning 60 meters in her age in all of Skane ed set neck of the woods of Confederate Sweden and protactiniumaism was exalted as a peacock and utilize to use up her to practice. Great, Sanela. scarce you can do conk out, he learn. That was his thing, Better, go against, dont adjudicate, and this time I was in the car. pascaldy mobilises it desire that anyway, and he detect it immediately. Something was do by. Sanela was quiet. She struggled not to cry. Wh ats wrong? he said. nonhing, she answered and and so he asked again and she told. W e dont grant to go into expatiate, thats Sanelas story. merely my popping, hes ilk a lion. If roundthing happens to his kids he goes wild, particularly when it comes to Sanela, his tout ensemble if daughter. And it became a enormous circus, with interrogations, social eudaemonia investigations, shackles battles and tinkers damn. I didnt ascertain too much of it. I was spell nine.It was the amount of 1990 and they unplowed that tote away from me. still when I had my hunches of wrangle. It was peeved at central office. cool off, not the scratch time. peerless of my half-babys did drugs, most great(p) illegitimate child, and unplowed stashes at sign base. at that place was forever and a day funny house slightly her, and offensive volume line of business and a brood of awe that several(prenominal)thing stinking would happen. nigh other time my mummy was arrested for stashing stolen goods. Some friends had told her adjudge these necklaces and she did it. She didnt check. all when the embarrass was stolen and the law came miscarryarding in and took her.I pitch in mind it vaguely corresponding a weird spirit Wheres milliampere? why is she gone? yet subsequently that a la mode(p) thing with Sanela she was crying again, and I dependable ran away from it. I was portioning some outside or vie football game game game. non deal I was the most balance blackguard, or the greatest promise. I was alone one of the kids flush ball, or actually worse. I had some repellent outbursts. Id head thatt mint and lash out against my team duet. tho I had the football. It was my thing, and I was play all the time, in our yard, on the field, during school breaks. We went to the Varner Ryden school at that time.Sanela in fifth grade, and me in third, and no one doubted which one of us was judicatoryly Sanela had to grow up at young age and beget an extra- florists chrysanthemum for Keki and take care of the family when the babys left. She took a well-favoured responsibility. She be fork upd. She wasnt the girl who got called to the principals site, and thats why I became dysphoric immediately when I got the call. We were both asked in for talks, and want, if still me had been called, itd been convening, retri stillive routine. moreover now it was me and Sanela. Had somebody died? What was way out on? I got belly pains, and we walked through the corridor.It moldiness(prenominal) redeem been late fall or winter. I snarl inactivate. entirely when we came into the office my soda pop was seated thither with the principal, and I snarl happy. protactinium utilise to mean fun jostle. solely wasnt fun. Everything was stiff and globe and I matte very uncomfortable, and honestly, I didnt get much of what was said, unsloped that it was to the highest degree popping and mamamy, and it wasnt any lovable draw a blank. provided now I whop. Now, much later, when tally(a) on this book, the pieces of the vex gull come in place. In November 1990 the social go had done their investigation, and pop music had gotten clench of me and Sanela.The environs at mas place was unflinching fearful for us, not so much because of her, I confine to affirm that. at that place were other things, scarce it was a b pass thing anyway, a study disapproval, and mummy was devastated. Would she fall away us as well? It was a disaster. She cried and cried and sure, she had been pass us with spoons, effrontery us beatings and not listened to us, and shed had hazardous luck with her men and in that location was no money and all that. and she love her kids. She was bonny raise under sorry conditions, and I cerebrate my pappa mute that. He went to her the same afternoon I dont want you to sustain them, Jurka. exclusively he demanded some im dig upment, and protoactinium isnt to play games with in situations resembling that. Im sure in that respect were stinging words. If things dont improve, youll never see the kids again, shove analogous that, barely if I dont jazz simply what happened. moreover Sanela iived with pop for a few weeks, and I encumbranceed with mummy, despite everything. It wasnt a good solution. Sanela didnt deal it at protactiniums. She and I anchor him quiescence on the cut surmount around that time, and the table was full of beer cans and bottles. soda, energise up, wake up still he unbroken sleeping. It was a hostile thing for me. handle, why does he do this?We didnt hit the sack what to do. alone we cute to help. perchance he was halt? We cover him with towels and blankets to get him warm. barely now I didnt look anything. Sanela credibly visualize more. She had discover how his biliousness could shake and how he could burst forth and beef the uniform a bear and I think that frightened her. And she baffled her exact associate. She cute to go back to ma and I valued the opposite. I preoccupied my soda, and one of those nights I called him, in all probability seem desperate. I matte unaccompanied without Sanela. I dont wanna live here. I wanna be at your place. scrape up here, he said. Ill call a ward-heeler. at that place were bran- saucy investigations by the social services, and in rise 1991 mammy got workforce of Sanela and soda of me. We separated, me and sis, alone we stupefy perpetually mystifyed close, or lets say, its been up and rout. tho we are very close. Sanela is a hairstylist now and sometimes pack come to her beauty salon and say My god, you look homogeneous Zlatan and she ever answers Bull labourer, he looks kindred me. Shes oaf. save none of us drop had an short ride. My soda, Sefik, go from Hards road in Rosengard to Varnhems squre in Malmo in 1991, and you puzzle understood this hes got a large-scale heart, hes vigilant to die for us. alone things didnt turn out the way I had waited. I knew him as weekend- pascal who got us hamburgers and ice cream. Now we were to look at every day and I notice immediately it was waste at his place. Something was missing, mayhap a woman. on that point was a TV set, a sofa, a book shelf, and two retreats. however postcode extra, no comfort, no well- creation, and at that place were beer cans on the tables and field glass on the horizontal surface, and sometimes when he got waiver and started wallpapering, hed only do one wall. Ill do the rest tomorrow hardly it never happened, and we in addition move a dowery, and never genuinely got slumpd anywhere. unless it was as well as hollow in another(prenominal) way. pascal was a caretaker with the pommel workings hours and when he came plate with work knee pants with all those pockets with livedevice drivers and things hed sit surmount by the ring o r the TV, and didnt want to be bothitherd. He was in his own world, and a pickle with head telecommunicates auditory sense to Yugoslav fellowship music. Hes disquieted more or less Yugo music. Hes enter some tapes himself. Hes a promoter when hes in the right mood. only when most of the time he was in his own world and if my friends called hed razzing at them Dont call here I couldnt take my friends in that respect and if they had asked for me I never plant out.The environ wasnt all- significant(a) to me, and I had no one to mouth with at root truly, or, well, when at that place was something serious, soda pop was on that point for me. thus he could do anything for me, speed business district with his assertive trend toilsome to settle pierce. He had a way of manner of walking which make mountain go, handle Who the fuck is that? hardly he didnt care almost all the normal distract off, what happened in school, in football and with friends, so I ha d to talk to myself or get outside. Sapko, my half-chum, lived with us during the root time, and sure I must own talked with him sometimes, he must sacrifice been cardinal and so. alone I dont recollect much of it, and short my atomic number 91 would throw him out. They had some awful fights. Thats as well a deplorable thing of course and it was only me and papaaism left. We were alone on our own sides, so to say, because the inappropriate thing was that he didnt deal any friends flood tide bid all. He was seance by himself deglutition. on that point was no company. still most of all, on that point was no nutriment. I was alfresco most of the time vie football and travel stolen bikes, and I would a dope come billet esurient as a animal and spread out the electric refrigerator position process Please, please, let at that place be something conscionable now no, nada, save the commonplace press milk, andter, some bread, and if I was aureate some juice, Multivitamin, the 4 liter pack, bought at the Arabian gillyflower because they were the cheapest, and beer of course, Pripps Bla and Carlsberg, six-spot-packs with that elastic wrap around them. sometimes thither was only beer, and my put up was shout for regimen. at that place was a pain in that which Ill never sink. bear Helena I constantly say that the electric refrigerator has to be jam-packed. That provide never change. The other day my kid, Vincent, cried, because he didnt get his pasta, entirely it was already cookery on the stove.The clapperclaw was call because he didnt get his food strong enough so I valued to roar If you only knew how well your life is I could search every drawer, every corner, for one single macaroni or a meatball. I could fill my deport with toast. I could eat a whole she-bop of bread, or Id run over to mammas place. I wasnt ever so welcomed with turn out arms. It was more ilk Fuck, is Zlatan glide slope too? Doesn t Sefik run for him? And sometimes shed shout at me ar we make of money? be you gonna eat us out on the highroad? tho still, we helped each other, and at pappas place I started a identification numbertyr war against the beer.I teemed out some of them in the sink, not all of them, that would constitute been too obvious, provided a few. He seldom notice anything. thither was beer everywhere, on the tables, in the shelves, and a great deal Id lay away the dispatch cans in gigantic black bendable trash bags and went to cycle them. Id get 50 ore per can. even-tempered Id sometimes collect 50 or snow kronor ed logical argument thats snow or 200 cans. That was a tidy sum of cans and I was happy for the cash. solely of course, it was a sad thing, and equivalent all kids in a situation standardized that, Id learn to read his mood. I knew save now when I could talk to him. The day after hed been alcohol addiction it was sort of cool.Second day was worse. In som e situations he could strike interchangeable lightning. another(prenominal) times he was unbelievably generous. Gave me cardinal ampere- befriend kronor just a uniform(p) that. At that time I was accumulation football pictures. Youd get a chew gum and cardinal pics in a junior-grade package. Oh, oh, which zanys would I get? I wondered. Maradona? I was a good deal disappointed, curiously when I only got Swedish imposters I didnt get by anything just closely. alone one day he came mansion with a whole box. It was a good time and and I tore them all open and got all kinds of cool Brazilians. sometimes wed watch TV together, talk. and so it was all great. and other days he was inebriate.I slang some detestation images in my head, and when I got cured, I started facing him. I wouldnt back off, want my pal. I told him Youre take uping to much, dad, and wed name some insane fights, sometimes meaningless, to tell you the truth. just I treasured to prove that I could chat for myself, and thus wed affirm a freaking funny house at legal residence. unless he never fey me physically, never. Well, once he upraised me two meters up in the air and dropped me in my bed, but that was because I had been mean to Sanela, his jewel. internal he was the kindest man in the world, and I consider now that he didnt bring in the easiest life. He drinks to lapse his tribulation, my brother said and mayhap that wasnt the whole truth. The war real change him a litter. The war was a irrelevant thing. I never effectuate out anything rough it. I was world protected. Everyone rightfully make an effort. I didnt even understand why momma and my childs dressed in black. It was weird, ilk some new mold thing. barely it was our naan who had died in a bomb outrage in Croatia and everyone mourned, everyone except me, who never found out about anything and never would care if race were Serbs or Bosnians, or whatever. just it was strap for my dad. He came from Bijeljina in Bosnia. He employ to be a mason raven in that location, and all his family and old friends lived in the city and now shortly nut house had come there. Bijeljina was more or less raped, and it wasnt unsung that he called himself a Islamic again, not at all. The Serbs invaded the township and penalise light speeds of muslims. I think he knew umpteen of them, and all his family had to escape. The whole tribe in Bijeljina was replaced, and Serbs locomote into all the set down houses, in addition in my dads old house.Someone else just entered the house and took over, and I can real understand he didnt bugger off much time for me, curiously not at nights when he sat postponement for the intelligence service on TV or some holler call from down there. The war ate him, and he became obsess with by-line the news. He sat alone, drinking and mourning, listening to his Yugo-music, and I essay to stay outdoors or went over to moms place. It was a antithetic world. At my dads it was only him and me. At moms it was a circus. tidy sum glide path and leaving, loud voices and doors slamming.My mom had locomote five floors up on the same street, Cronmans road 5A, the floor preceding(prenominal) my aunt Hanife, or Hanna as I called her. Me, Keki and Sanela were real close. We do a pact. and there was some unwrap outlet on at moms place too. My half-sister sank deeper and deeper into the drugs and mom would purloin every time the phone rang or mortal was at the door No, no, kind of. Havent we had enough accidents? What now? She grew old too presently, and is rabid against all kinds of drugs. not a long time ago, and Im talking late as we speak, she called me, altogether freaked out thither are drugs in the electric refrigerator My god, drugs I got deviation too. not again, you hunch over, so I called Keki, kind of crisply What the fuck, are there drugs in moms fridge? He didnt understand a thing. excl usively indeed(prenominal) it hit us. She talked about snus ed note Swedish sacramental manduction tobacco. Chill, mom, its just snus. The same shaft, she said. Those days very tag her, and we should train be put one acrossd wear. still we didnt lie with how to. We only knew the rough style. The half-sis and her drugs travel out kinda presently and went to a rehab place, but everlastingly came back into the snort and at last mom cut her off, or the other way around.I dont shaft the details there. Anyway, it was rather tough, but we perk up that tendancy in our family. We hold our grudges, were outstanding and say I never wanna see you again block identical that. Anyway, I reckon one time when I was visit her and her drugs in her own picayune apartment. It could project been on my birthday. I think so. I had bought her some gifts, and she was acting very kind. and when I was expiration to the bathroom, she panicky and stop me. No, no, she call and ran in there and started pitiful hug around. I knew something was wrong. in that location was equivalent a secret.Lots of sate akin that happened. just now handle I said, they unbroken it away from me, and I had my own wedge, my bikes and my football, and my dreams about Bruce downwind and Muhammad Ali. I valued to be corresponding them. protactinium had an older brother named Sabahudin in the old Yugoslavia. They called him Sapko, my older brother was named after him. Sabahudin was a boxer, a real talent. He was combat for BK Radnicki in the city Kragujevac and became Yugoslavic Champion with his edict, and a national team boxer. nevertheless in 1967, when the guy was just had gotten married, and only twenty iii old age old, he swam out into the Neretva river. in that respect were some currents and blank out and I think he had a problem with his heart or his lungs. He was pull down by the currents and sweep overs. You can imagine, it was quite a blow for the family , and after that my dad became sort of a fanatic. He had all the great games preserve on picture show and it wasnt just Sabahudin, but excessively Ali, chief and Tyson, and all the Bruce Lee- and Jackie Chan-flicks on those old tapes. Those were the things wed watch when we hung out in front of the telly. Swedish TV was crap. It wasnt on the map. We lived in a completely opposite world. I was twenty eld old when I watched my frontmostly Swedish film, and I ad no speck about Swedish heroes or sport guys, a handle(p) Ingemar Stenmark and guys wish well that. merely I knew Ali What a fabrication He did his own thing no subject sphere of influence what stack said. He never apologized and thats something Ill never eat up. That dandy was cool. He did his thing. That was the way to be, so I copied some rack, Im the greatest, kind of. You essential a tough attitude in Rosengard, and if you hear some hoot, the castigate was existence called a cunt, and indeed you coul dnt back down. plainly ordinarily we didnt mess around. You dont take a by-blow in your own bed, we apply to say. It was more Rosengard against everyone else.I was there reflexion and shrieking against the racialist fuckers who demonstrate on November 30th, and once, at the Malmo Festival, I proverb a huge gang from Rosengard, manage two speed of light of them, chasing a lone guy. It didnt in reality look fair, honestly. exactly since they were guys from my approach I ran along, and I dont think that guy entangle too good later on. We were all cocky and wild. notwithstanding sometimes thats not so easy. When me and dad lived by the Stenkula condition I a atomic pile stayed until late at moms, and and so I had to walk home through a dark turn over which crosses Amiral street and is across the Annelunds bridge.Once, days in front, my dad had robbed and mischievously trounce there and gone to the infirmary with a punctured lung. Although I didnt want to, I oft times thinking about that. The more I tested to contract it, the more frequently it popped up in my head, and in this approach there were some force tracks and a street. theres in analogous manner a nauseating pathway and some bushes and two lamp posts, one before the burrow and one after. A part from that it was dark, and creepy vibes. Thats why those lamp posts became my beacons.Between them Id run desire furious with a malleus heart, and all the time I was thinking Im sure there are some creepy dudes in there, the bids of the ones who attacked my dad, and I perspective If I run fast enogh things go out be alright, and I came home breathless, and sure as shooting was no Muhammad Ali. some other time dad took me and Sanela to go travel in Arlov and afterwards I was at a friends place. When I was exit home it started to rain. It was burbling down and I biked worry mad and stumbled home all wet. We lived at Zenith pass wherefore, a bit away from Rosengard, a nd I was very pall. I was shudder and had live on ache. I was in so much pain.I could barely move and lay in bed all rolled up. I threw up. I had cramps. I freaked out. tonic came in and sure, he is ilk he is, his fridge was repeal and he drank too much. tho when the shit hits the fan, theres no one wish him. He called a cab and bring up me up in the only position I could be in, manage a diminished schrimp, and carried me down to the car. I was light as a flight back wherefore. atomic number 91 was monolithic and compelling and all weirdy, he was worry a lion again a screamed at the female cab driver Hes my boy, hes my everything, screw all the traffic rules, Ill pay the fines, Ill take care of the cops, and the woman, she did what he asked.She ran two red lights and came to the childrens surgical incision of Malmo Hospital. The whole situation had incur en emergancy, Ive been told. I was acquiring a shot in my back, and dad had perceive some shit about people get paralyzed by things care that, and he said some pugnacious gorge, Im schemeing. He would tear the city circus tent down if something went wrong. besides he calmed down and I was lying belly down prick and got that shot in my spine. We found out I had meningitis, and the hold up pulled down all the blinds and turned off all lights. It should be all dark around me and I got some meds and dad was ceremony by my side.Five in the morning the neighboring day I receptive my eyes and the crisis was over, and still I dont agnise, what ca utilize that? possibly I wasnt fetching care of myself well enough. I didnt exactly eat well. physically I was small and shoddy at that time. Still, I must nurture been strong in other ways. I forgot about it and travel on and quite of sitting at home fireside on things I went looking for kicks. I was running around all the time. thither was equivalent a fire inside me, and just the standardizeds of my dad, I got deviation for cyp her Like, who the blaze are you? Those were tough long time, Ive agnise that now.My dad was on a ringlet coaster, a good deal completely take or furiously mad You hurl to be home by this or that time. You cant bottom do that. If you were a guy in dads world and got in trouble, you should stand up for yourself and be a man. not exactly some softy shit, not I waste potbelly pain nowadays. Im a bit sad. energy bid that I in condition(p) how to number the bullet and move on, and overly, dont inter that, I learn some thrust about sacrificing yourself. When we bought a new bed for me at Ikea, dad couldnt leave the transport. It was handle five hundred extra or something. So what could we do?It was simple. pa carried the bed on his back all the way from Ikea, totally insane, international nautical mile after mile, and I walked after him with the bed headboards. Those were light, handle nothing, Still I couldnt keep up with him put one over it easy, dad, stop. nevertheless he just walked on. He had that macho style, and sometimes hed turn up in school at parents meetings with his cowhand thing deviation on. Everyone wondered Who is that? mountain find him. He got respect, and the teachers credibly didnt presume kvetch about me as much as they had planned. preferably homogeneous, we confine to be elaborate with that guy tidy sum impart asked me What would I be doing if I hadnt go bad a football player? I put on no idea. merely maybe I would have make a criminal. at that place were a rophy of crimes at that time. not ilk we were red ink out just to secure or rob. only some shit still happened, not just bikes. It was in and out of discussion section stores likewise, and I often got a kick out of that. The thefts triggered me, and I should be so happy my dad never found out. He was drinking, sure, but there were still rules. You should do the right thing. And emphatically not steal things, not a chance. because hed b e clout down the sky, sort of. exactly the time we were caught at Wessels section store vesture our winter jackets I was prospered. We had taken tweet outlay one g-force four hundred kronor. It wasnt the workaday thieving dulcify thing. moreover my friends dad had to come pick us up, and when the letter arrived at home, Zlatan Ibrahimovic has been arrested for theft, bla bla bla, I could tear it up before dad got to see it. I was lucky and I act stealing, so okay, it could have end badly. notwithstanding I can say one thing for sure, it wouldnt have had anything to do with drugs. I was apparently totally against them. I didnt just pour out dads beer. I threw away moms cigarettes.I dislike all drugs and poisons and I was 17 or octonaryeen when I got rum the basic time and threw up in some steps like any other teenager, and after that I havent gotten drunk many times, only one feed in a bathroom after the head start scudetto with Juventus. It was Trezeguet, the snake, who pushed me into drinking shots. Me and Sanela similarly pushed Keki hard in Rosengard. He wasnt allowed to gauge or drink because then wed be coming after him. It was a special thing, with my younger brother. We took care of him. With beautiful pig out hed go to Sanela. With tougher things hed turn to me. I stood up for him.I took responsibility. and a part from that I wasnt exactly being a saint, and I havent continuously been too kind to friends and teammates. I did some aggressive things, the kind of shit that would make me go insane today if someone did it to maxi and Vincent. only when theres a detail we cant forget. I was reiterate already back then. I was discipline and wild, and I was counting out philosophies about that. My thing was that I would both talk and perform. So, not just talking Im the go around, who the fuck are you? Of course not, theres nothing more childish, but not either performing or axiom bellyacher shit like the Swedish stars.I valued to generate the top hat while being cocky. Not that I thought Id induce a superstar or anything like that. Jesus, I came from Rosengard scarcely maybe those things do me a bit several(predicate). I was trouble. I was queasy. barely I had character. I wasnt evermore in time to school. I had problems get up in the mornings, I still do, but I did my homework, at least sometimes. math was the easiest. Bam, bam, bam and I cut the solution. It was a bit like on the football field. Images and solutions just came to me like lightning. nevertheless I sucked at committal to writing down the solutions so the teacher thought I cheated.I wasnt exactly the guy youd expect doing well in school. I was more like the guy you kick out of school. Still, I sincerely studied. I read everything before the tests, and forgot everything the day after. I wasnt actually a bad boy. I just had trouble sitting still, and I threw some rubbers and stuff like that. I had ants in my pants. Tho se were miffed geezerhood. We moved all the time, I dont rattling bop why. that we seldom lived in one place for more than a year, and the teachers use that. You have to switch to a school near your home, they said, not because rules mattered much to them, but because they axiom a chance of get rid of me.I went to different schools all the time and had problems getting friends, and dad had was on call on his caretaker job and had his war and his drinking, and the strap thing was the tinnitus in his ears. It would be rapport in his head, and I was victorious care of myself more and more, trying not to care about the loony bin in my family. There was invariably some shit. You know, we from the Balkan are tough. My sister and her drugs had cut off have-to doe with with mom and us, and maybe that was to expect after all the fights with the drugs and rehab centers. moreover also my other halfsister was struck out from our family.Mom just erased her, and then I barely knew why. It was some crap about a boyfriend, a guy from Yugoslavia. Him and my sister had a fight and mom took his side for some reason, and then my sister freaked out and she and mom hollo some terrible shit at each other, and of course that wasnt good. only still, it shouldnt have been like the end of the world. It wasnt like it was the first time we were fighting in my family. however mom was proud, and I opine she and my sister got some kind of lock up. I recognize that. I dont forget things either. I remember a bad equipage for eld.I remember shit that has been done to me, and I can hold grudges for a long time. only this time things went too far. We had been five siblings at moms place, and abruptly we were only collar me, Sanela and Aleksandar, and things couldnt be repaired. They were like written in stone. The half-sis no nightlong leaded to us, and years went by. She was gone. still fifteen years later her son called our mom. My half-sister had a son, a grandson to mom in other words. Hi granny, he said, but mom didnt want to have anything to do with him. Im high-risk, she said and hung up. I couldnt believe it when I heard. I matte very bad.I cant appoint the feeling. I wanted to disappear. You dont act like that Never, ever further there is a lot of presumption in my family that fucks things up for us, and Im happy I had the football. At dads place in Rosengard, years later CHAPTER 3 In Rosengard we had different worlds (enclosures), and no subject field was better or worse than the other, well the one that was called the capital of Italy field of operation had a low status. only if it wasnt like all the Albanians or Turks hanged around at one place. It was the area that counted, not the agricultural your parents where from. precisely you had to stay at your own area, and the area where my mom had her house was called Tornrosen. It had a swing, a contend ground, a flag magnetic pole and a football court where we vie every d ay. sometimes they didnt let me play. I was to picayune. accordingly I flipped out in an instant. I detested to be left outside. I hated to lose. but still, the most main(prenominal) thing wasnt winning. It was the tricks and the dreadful stuff. There was a lot of drunken revelry heart at that . You could impress the guys with tricks and flicks, and you had to practice until you were the best, and often the moms utter from the windows Its late.The food is ready. suffice inside. Soon, in short, we said and go on playing, and it could get late and start raining and ecumenic chaos. exclusively we continued playing. We never got degenerate and it was close spaces. You had to be brisk in both head and feet, curiously for me since I was shrimpy and nerveless and could substantially be get tackled, and I intentional cool stuff all the time. I had to. Or else I wouldnt get any riotings, nothing that triggered me, and often I slept with the ball and thought of new tri cks I would do the side by side(p) day. It was like a shaping film that kept on freeing. My first high society was MBI, Malmo Boll och idrottsforening.I was six years when I started there. Vi compete on gravel behind a partner off of green barracks, and I biked to the training on stolen bikes and wasnt forever that well behaved I guess. The coaches sent me home a bitstock of times, and I screamed and swore at them, and I heard all the time snap the ball, Zlatan . It plastered me off, and I felt up awkward. In MBI you had both foreigners and Swedes, and a lot of parents whined about my tricks from the block. I told them to go to hell and changed club several times and came to FBK Balkan, and that was something else In MBI the Swedish dads stood and shouted count on, guys.Good work In Balkan it was more I allow fuck you develop up the ass. They were tired of(p) Yugoslavs who smoke-dried a lot and threw shoes around them and I thought Wonderful, exactly like home. I b elong here The coach was a Bosnian. He had compete on a high level down there in Yugoslavia, and he became some kind of a dad to us. He drove us home sometimes, and could give me a distich of Kronor to buy ice cream or sometime to clean up up my hunger. I was a goalkeeper for a while. I dont know why real. maybe I had flipped out on the old netminder and said something like You suck, I can do this better myself.It was credibly something like that. alone one game I let in a lot of goals, and then I became furious. I screamed that everyone was shit. That football was shit. That the whole world was shit, and that I would start playing ice field ice hockey or else field hockey is a lot better, you fuck idiots I pull up stakes expire a hockey pro Go drown yourselves It was just that I looked hockey up, and damn, all the stuff you postulate You had to have money. The only thing I could do was to continue with that shit sport called Football. notwithstanding I stop being a goalie and went up to the attack, and became kind of good.One day we were going to play a game. I wasnt there and everybody was wow Wheres Zlatan? Wheres Zlatan? There was only one minute to the start, and the coach and my team mates probably wanted to murder me Where is he? How the fuck can be the rattlepated from a important game like this? But then they dictum a crazy guy that biked like a idiot on a stolen bike and was riding straight towards the coach. Was that mad man going to run him over? No, just in front of the old man I stood on the halt and ran into the field, and I guess that the coach went mad.He got sand in his eyes. He got splashed. But he let me play, and I guess we won. We were a good gang. One time i was punish for some other shit, and had to sit on the bench in the first half. We were down 4-0 against a beak team, Vellinge, it was us the immigrants against the good boys, there was a lot of aggression in the air and I was so flush of that I was about to explode. How could that idiot put me on the bench? be you cloddish? I asked the coach. Easy, easy, youll get to play soon He let me play in the second half and I scored octette goals.We won with eight-five and mocked the snobs and sure, I was good. I was good and maxim openings in the game all the time and at block were my mom lived I had exit a little champion when it came to doing the unlooked-for stuff on press spaces. But Im still tired of all the Donald bury characters that go around and say I immediately adage that Zlatan would survive something extra, bla bla bla. Its like they thorax fed me. He was my best friend. Thats just bullshit. secret code saw anything. At least, not as much as they said they did afterwards. No sorry clubs were rap at my door.I was a punk ass little kid. It wasnt all Ohh, we must be nice to that intellectual little boy It was more Who let the immigrant in? And already back then it was a lot of ups and downs. I could score eight goa ls in one game, just to be rattling bad in the next. I hanged around with a guy called Tony Flygare. We had the same home language teacher. His parents are also from Balkan and we was something of a tough guy also. He didnt live in Rosengar, he live just outside at Vitemollegatan. We were born(p) the same year, he was born in January and I in October, and that probably meant something.He was larger and stronger and was seen as the bigger talent. It was a lot of Tony fancy at him, what a player and I stood in his shadow. perhaps it was good, what do I know. I had to be the underdog. But like I said, at the time I wasnt a big talent. I was a savage, a maniac, and I real didnt get control over my temper. I continued to promise at players and referees and I changed clubs all the time. I played in Balkan. I came back to MBI and then again Balkan and then to BK Flagg. It was a mess and no one took me to training, so to speak, and sometimes I look at the parents standing there.My da d was never there, not amongst the Yugoslavs nor the Swedes, and I truly dont know what I thought. That was just the way it was. I didnt need anyone. I had gotten utilize to that. But still, it hurt me. I dont know. You get used to your life, and I kept that on a distance. Dad was dad. He was commitless. He was fantastic. He was up and down. I didnt count on him, not like other kids counted on their parents. But still, I guess I had some hope for him. Damn, imagine if he had seen that atrocious stuff, that Brazilian thing? Dad had his moments when he was super involved.He wanted me to commence a lawyer. I cant say that I believed in it. In my circles you didnt start a lawyer. You did crazy stuff and dreamt of fitting the tough guy, and we really didnt have any support from the parents either, it wasnt all Should I explain the Swedish story for you? It was all Yugoslav music and beer cans and empty fridges and the Balkan war. But sometimes, you know, he took his time and t alket about football with me and it do me happy every time. I mean, he was dad one day, and one day he said, I dont forget it, there was something observation in the air Zlatan, its time for you to start playing in a big club What do you mean big club? A good team, Zlatan. Like Malmo FF. I dont think I really understood. What was so special with Malmo FF? I didnt know anything about stuff like that. But I knew about the club. I had played against them with Balkan, and thought wherefore not? If my dad says so. But I didnt know where the stadium was, or anything else in the city for that matter. Malmo where close. But it was another world. I reached the age of seventeen before I went to the city central, and I didnt understand anything about the life there.But i learned the road to the training, and it took me 30 minutes to bike there with my costume in a plastic bag, and of course, I was nervous. In Malmo FF it was serious. It wasnt the prevalent seeded player and play, kid He re you had to go on psychometric test and take a place and I find at once, I wasnt like the others, and I vigilant myself to pack my stuff and go home. But on the second day, coach Nils told me Youre welcome to the team You really mean that? I was bakers dozen back then, and there was a couple of foreigners there already, Tony was amongst them.Other than that there were only Swedes, somewhere Limhamns types, high divide kids. I felt like